Emuna, Motherhood

Who are the Women who Made You?

I'm in coaching school now at The Redemption School with Rivka Malka Perlman.  I'm actually being a student and fully immersing myself in the experience (usually I'm an admin and background support).  The exercises that RMP leads us through are FASCINATING and powerful.  Today we learned about The Future Self, a tool to take someone… Continue reading Who are the Women who Made You?

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The Bible portion that Made Me Convert to Judaism…

With all the hurricanes and fires and earthquakes happening, many have been talking about a wake-up call.  Is G-d trying to get our attention?  Is the end near?  What does "the end" even mean? I saw a man on the streets of Baltimore preaching something.  He may or may not have been crazy.  I was… Continue reading The Bible portion that Made Me Convert to Judaism…

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Dance in the Rain (Responding to Life’s Hurricanes)

I'm not exactly dancing, but I'm not just standing here getting soaked either.  It has been raining stress and uncertainty for a long time, but this month has escalated.  I flip flop between lows of emotion - tears, despair, confusion - and highs of elation - emuna, peace, power.  I'm not judging myself for any… Continue reading Dance in the Rain (Responding to Life’s Hurricanes)

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When We’re Left with Nothing But Hashem… (Salvations & Sweet Tea)

I'm strangely relaxed.  Kind of in a stupor.  It is Rosh Chodesh Elul.  I have all kinds of "shoulds" floating in my brain.  I should be working harder.  I should be planning something.  I should be making phone calls.  But I'm sitting in Barnes & Noble drinking a sweet iced tea looking at the harbor.… Continue reading When We’re Left with Nothing But Hashem… (Salvations & Sweet Tea)

Emuna, Motherhood

Who I Ran Into on the Worst Day Ever and Why I’m Done Adulting

WOMEN ONLY PLEASE I woke up sweating again.  Not from some scary nightmare, but from the stress of my own life, I guess.  Night sweats.  Hormones.  Thyroid.  Of all the symptoms, I have had over the past year, the night sweats scare me the most, because they are so clearly physically indicative of something off… Continue reading Who I Ran Into on the Worst Day Ever and Why I’m Done Adulting

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What’s “True” About Your Current Situation?

I grew up religious religious religious Christian, with a very absolute view of truth.  The Bible is true.  This pastor is true.  Right and wrong are true and false.  Black and white are wrong and right. True. In this religious atmosphere, badness was everywhere.  Movies were bad.  Dancing was bad. Drinking was bad.  Secular books… Continue reading What’s “True” About Your Current Situation?

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Waiting on Redemption (in a Courtroom)

I am in a courtroom.  I'm in the victim witness waiting room.  I'm a witness, for my son, the victim.  I'm the victim.  (I am so tired of being the victim.)  Today, I'm fairly certain, will be a delay, a formality, another step in the long hike toward justice for my son.  Hashem, your justice… Continue reading Waiting on Redemption (in a Courtroom)