I’m sitting across from a yummy brown-skinned boy in clean dinosaur pjs playing a video game on my phone (so I can type this passionate raging article I’m about to type). He’s playing and I hear shooting sounds and he says in his sing-song voice, “I’m fighting bad guys, I’m fighting bad guys.” He’s what… Continue reading Racism and Abuse in the Jewish Community (My Pains Collide)
Three days into a home stay-cation courtesy of the flu, 2 sick children, 1 sick mommy, freezing cold temperatures, and nowhere to turn hours into Shabbos, I decide to open a 1,000 piece puzzle. Genius idea, genius. It's a 1,000 piece puzzle I bought for my 7-year-old for Chanukah, my 7-year-old who hates puzzles. But… Continue reading Puzzles & Mommy Overwhelm
We get stuck in our stories, the "facts" as we see them. Which, often are only side vapors of the truth. I like to write affirmations. True truths. Truths I can trust. Even when they feel false, they are true. And the more I say them, feel them, breathe them, the more I believe them. … Continue reading 38 Affirmations for a Happy Life
I'm in coaching school now at The Redemption School with Rivka Malka Perlman. I'm actually being a student and fully immersing myself in the experience (usually I'm an admin and background support). The exercises that RMP leads us through are FASCINATING and powerful. Today we learned about The Future Self, a tool to take someone… Continue reading Who are the Women who Made You?
With all the hurricanes and fires and earthquakes happening, many have been talking about a wake-up call. Is G-d trying to get our attention? Is the end near? What does "the end" even mean? I saw a man on the streets of Baltimore preaching something. He may or may not have been crazy. I was… Continue reading The Bible portion that Made Me Convert to Judaism…
I'm not exactly dancing, but I'm not just standing here getting soaked either. It has been raining stress and uncertainty for a long time, but this month has escalated. I flip flop between lows of emotion - tears, despair, confusion - and highs of elation - emuna, peace, power. I'm not judging myself for any… Continue reading Dance in the Rain (Responding to Life’s Hurricanes)
I'm strangely relaxed. Kind of in a stupor. It is Rosh Chodesh Elul. I have all kinds of "shoulds" floating in my brain. I should be working harder. I should be planning something. I should be making phone calls. But I'm sitting in Barnes & Noble drinking a sweet iced tea looking at the harbor.… Continue reading When We’re Left with Nothing But Hashem… (Salvations & Sweet Tea)
WOMEN ONLY PLEASE I woke up sweating again. Not from some scary nightmare, but from the stress of my own life, I guess. Night sweats. Hormones. Thyroid. Of all the symptoms, I have had over the past year, the night sweats scare me the most, because they are so clearly physically indicative of something off… Continue reading Who I Ran Into on the Worst Day Ever and Why I’m Done Adulting
I grew up religious religious religious Christian, with a very absolute view of truth. The Bible is true. This pastor is true. Right and wrong are true and false. Black and white are wrong and right. True. In this religious atmosphere, badness was everywhere. Movies were bad. Dancing was bad. Drinking was bad. Secular books… Continue reading What’s “True” About Your Current Situation?
I am in a courtroom. I'm in the victim witness waiting room. I'm a witness, for my son, the victim. I'm the victim. (I am so tired of being the victim.) Today, I'm fairly certain, will be a delay, a formality, another step in the long hike toward justice for my son. Hashem, your justice… Continue reading Waiting on Redemption (in a Courtroom)