Hey! I'm Rina…

My name, Rina, means “joy” in Hebrew – and I actually got to choose it when I converted to Judaism 8 years ago.  I chose “joy” at a high and low time of life – I was 8 months pregnant, waddling, overweight, in a cramped upstairs apartment of an in-the-process-of-being-renovated old house.  I was in a new city, meeting new people, in a new religion. 

I wasn’t really that joyful.  To be honest, I was a bit miserable.  My marriage was falling apart, and I didn’t know it.  My mind had locked me into negative patterns of worry, guilt, shame, doubt, depression, anxiety, fear, fear, and more fear.  Uncertain circumstances and lack of proper tools drowned me daily.

I don’t want to undermine the beauty and holiness of the journey that had led us to choose a religious Jewish life – my Jewish wedding was the most joyful day of my life to that point!  

I simply know that at that time, looking through the Jewish Baby Name book, trying to name myself (you thought naming a BABY was hard, try naming yourself – all the possibilities!!) and trying to connect myself to a deep spiritual identity – or possibly just capture the identity I knew I already had… I wasn’t joyful.  But I chose “joy” anyway.

I knew I wanted my name to come from a very special prayer we say after meals, the “Song of Ascents.”  I felt drawn to it, specifically a part that says:

When the Lord returned the captives of Zion, we were like people in a dream. Then was our mouth filled with laughter,​ and our tongue with exultatio​n: then said they among the nations, The Lord has done great things for them. The Lord has done great things for us; so we rejoiced!​ Bring back our captives,​ O Lord, as the streams in the south. They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.” Psalm 126

This About Me section got Jewish really fast, and I really didn’t intend for that; so I want to back up for my non-Jewish readers, my non-religious readers, my Christian and Muslim and atheist readers, my spiritually seeking readers – whoever YOU are out there wanting joy in your life – I don’t discriminate – this blog’s for you.  We all want joy, right?!

Since I chose my name Rina, a lot of painful things have happened.  Divorce.  Financial loss.  Child abuse.  To name a few.  Joy is not a lack of painful circumstances.  Joy is letting the tears come and waking up in the morning with the faith that everything happens for a reason and everything happens for our best.  Joy is knowing that YOUR MIND has the power to create your reality, and Love is there wherever you go.

I’m happy you’re here.  And I’m happy to be together on our journey to joy.

Love,

Rina

PS.  I made a list of my Teachers, some awesome resources for anyone interested…

Rabbi Shalom Arush

Baers Kauffman

Rori Raye – Have the Relationship You Want

How to Talk so Kids Will Listen and Listen So Kids Will Talk

The Untethered Soul by Michael A. Singer

The Work by Byron Katie (a free website, not a book)

Radical Forgiveness by Colin Tipping

My Mother Shay Feaster – she doesn’t have a book or a blog, but she is JOY personified.  She lights up a room with her laugh, her extra-white smile, and her Truth.  She taught me the Law of Kindness and the Power of Faith before emuna (hebrew word for faith) ever entered my vocabulary.

The Villain – I’m blown away at how you sacrificed yourself on a soul level to play the bad guy in my healing story.  Our souls will dance again.